The great revelation of Tina Turner in her memoirs: “I knew that my mother never loved me” | People


“My parents called me Anna Mae, the only name I was known by until adulthood.” She did not know then how much it would cost her to survive. Nor that she would become Tina Turner years later —as a product of her first and turbulent marriage to Ike Turner—, a legend in the music industry who has managed to sell more than 200 million records thanks to hits like The best, deep mountain river high The What does love have to do with it?. His life story is so rich in experiences that releasing a single autobiographical volume was not enough. Turner is now publishing his second memoir following the 2017 success of My history of Love (Indications), which was an international bestseller. In happiness is born from you recounts the hard journey she went through to become the woman she is today, a title that will arrive in Spain on February 2 thanks to the Luciérnaga publishing house.

As a spiritual guide, the singer reels off memories and reveals at 82 years of age details of a life full of great obstacles. “The list is long: an unhappy childhood, abandonment, a violent marriage, a stagnant career, financial ruin, the premature death of members of my family and multiple illnesses,” she lists herself in her introduction. To transform her reality, she took all those experiences and turned them into something positive, relying on spirituality: she assures that Buddhism has made her a thoughtful and positive person, that it has pulled her out of the hole in which she has been stagnant for years, and It is precisely this idea that he wants to convey with this second book, which “is not a book of music or memories, but a very personal book”, as indicated by the publisher itself.

The artist begins her memoir by thanking the reader. She explains that she uses her gratitude as a weapon against those situations that led her to depression at the time, and even to consider suicide. Her story has taken several turns since her birth in Tennessee (USA). “I was brought into the world in a windowless basement relegated to the ‘colored’ women’s maternity ward at the county hospital,” she says. A stage in which she knew abandonment and tragedy. “My mother, Zelma, was affectionate with my sister, but she was different with me. I knew that she had never loved me. That is a heavy burden for a little girl”, she confesses, and she recounts how her mother abandoned her to live in the city, so the artist ended up living with her grandmother. In addition, around those years she also suffered the loss of her greatest confidante in her family, her cousin Margaret, who died in a car accident.

When her grandmother passed away, she began “a new life” in St. Louis, a large city located along the Mississippi River. “When I was 17, I went to Club Manhattan, a loud, smoky music venue, where I met two men who would play a very important role in my life.” One of them was a saxophonist with whom she had a fleeting romance. The other, Ike Turner, musician and bandleader, then famous for his theme rocket 88, and future husband of Tina. In the pages she tells how she was immersed in that chaotic story of toxic love, which ended in sexist violence.

Ike and Tina Turner.
Ike and Tina Turner.

“It was an endless succession of ordeals. She changed my name from Anna Mae Bullock to Tina Turner early in our relationship, despite my protests.” Her husband made her suffer both physically and emotionally. “Broken lips, black eyes, dislocated joints and psychological torture became part of my day to day,” she reveals. All this, added to the pressure of professional success that she was beginning to have. “That pressure intensified Ike’s insecurities and increased his drug use, which made his violent outbursts more frequent,” she recalls. There she began to lose hope. “In 1968, she was so depressed and downcast that she couldn’t think straight. One night before getting ready to go on stage, I tried to kill myself by taking 50 sleeping pills.” She assures that, at first, she felt “disappointed upon waking up” and realizing that she had not been able to end that suffering that had become a suffocating routine.

It was then, at her worst, that she found herself in Buddhism, and decided not to give up. “If there was justice in the universe, the long-awaited positivity would come to me one day,” she says hopefully. Throughout much of the book, Turner shares her learning with the reader, interspersing numerous life experiences. There were many challenges for her, but she assumes that she faced them with great inner strength. “I roared, roared and continued roaring until I overcame all the challenges”, he sums up in his own words in a book that, in addition to having anecdotes and spiritual concepts, includes images and reflections that have helped him overcome the darkest times of his life. his life. Facts that she shares in order for the reader to overcome hers as well.

“I know from experience that sometimes you have negative voices in your head that can be dangerous. These voices might say that you are too old, too gay, too skinny, too fat, too much this, too much that. They could tell you that no one will ever love you. Perhaps you have allowed your negative voices to undermine your self-esteem. If so, it is time to tell those voices that you are not going to accept them anymore, ”she encourages, hoping that life seen through her eyes will become a balm for others.


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